Fear

God works in seasons, I'm beginning to discover.

Seasons...

There are seasons of joy, seasons of pain, seasons of success, seasons of failure, seasons of storm, seasons of calm.

God remains faithful through it all.

Even when life doesn't look, smell, or taste like what we thought it would... when life brings fears and conflicts in the blink of an eye...

this promise still remains

"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love Him" 1st Corinthians 2:9

... we are simply to remain faithful.

Even then

"If we are unfaithful, he remains faithful, for he cannot deny himself" 2nd Timothy 2:13

As disciples of Jesus, however, we are called to be faithful and simply do what God has placed in front of us to do.

What has God called me to right now?

Right now?

The biggest question bouncing around in my heart right now concerns the MCATS.

Should I take them this year, or not?

Honestly, I'm terrified of them. I don't have one direction over another from God...

... and so I have set a fleece before Him.

the internship.

Most of me feels... oh, I have no idea.

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, of love, and self-control." 1st Timothy 1:7

Fear is a powerful crippler of the mind, and I confess I haven't been very good at conquering it lately.

Fear...

I remember the times I've walked straight through the fires of fear before, and God led me through with His strong arms, entirely unharmed.

once again, it is the battle of the mind.

and once again, I look, turn, cast myself upon Him...

ask Him to give me victory,

and realize...

He's already bought the victory.

It is mine to take

to stand

to fight for the truth

that the power of God conquers all fear.

Whether I do the MCATS this year or not,

Let it not be fear that holds me back.

A short and powerful video that inspired me this evening, after I wrote this blogpost on fear is linked right here:  ~ Live Before You Die